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2010.04.07
download the night's warm kisses video if you want it as it's about to be deleted.

i am purging the lies and the reminders of the all the times i was thrown around, almost choked to death, threatened, insulted, spit on and otherwise disrespected for the last few years. i was embarassed and ashamed to talk about it, but i think it's better to, so maybe others can get help if they need it. i am not perfect, by any means. i have been violent myself, even. well, i tried. i don't have a lot of it in me... i had a lot of craziness in me, and now i know why- because while my intuition told me someone was being shady and disrespectful, this person was telling me i was crazy, paranoid, oversensitive, and controlling. in fact, the truth has now come out and, unfortunately, i was right all along.

i always thought people who tolerated domestic violence were stupid and weak. but now i realize it's a process of deteriorating the person's ability to discern between what is acceptable behavior and what isn't, through intimidation and brain washing. i've been told for years that i'm crazy for voicing my opinion that certain things didn't seem right. but now i know- when someone, who claims to love you, takes your complaint and gets angry and turns it around on you, it means they probably are hiding something. they are avoiding taking responsibility by getting angry at you.

also, it isn't my fault that this person was violent and crazy with me. it sounds stupid and cliche, but it becomes very easy to take the blame in these situations. i did not drive to madness a person who has a history of drug abuse, violence (even going to jail for this), and control issues, serial dating whoever is willing to put out and, oftentimes, whoever has a car or an apartment to move into. i tried to reason with the madness. but, as burroughs said- never give succor to the mentally ill; it is a bottomless pit.

so.. yeah.. it's sad. i tried to trust and do the right things, but all the while was being lied to. he still won't admit it, dear lord! he even just emailed me like less than a week ago saying he hasn't met anyone as beautiful or awesome as i am and hoped that in the next life we'd live happily together!! (uhh.. no thanks...!) i still have the email! i think he was trying to keep me on the back burner in case things didn't work out with his new person aka his ex? or maybe he didn't want to hurt me, which is retarded, because then he should have admitted the truth a long time ago..
.. i really thought he loved me. i know i loved him and enjoyed a lot of our time together. i don't think he ever really moved on from his past, and, upon reflection, i should have listened better and believed him when he said he wasn't ready for me, etc. i just didn't understand how one could fall in love and want to have children yet not do the whole relationship part. now i understand, i think some people want their cake and to eat it too. i hope the girl he's with now has the sense to question why an old man has no job and lives with his mother, and doesn't end up with the same bruises and scars, literally, that i have. then again, i think he probably really loves her. i wish he had told me that from the start.

...it's still strange to me, though... why would he consider her a friend when she didn't act like a friend and let him move on from her? and why on earth would she consider him a friend when he's always talking shit about her? i still have so many emails where he's going on about how she was the ugliest girl he ever dated (according to him, ugly girls do more in bed... ew.) (her nickname was "the receptacle" ewwww!!!! that's sooo awful!!), how stupid she is, didn't even graduate from high school, "sold him out," lied, and was basically an insecure, halfbreed nobody with cheesy tattoos and a cheesy 1990s-type job who idolized him for being in some bands..
..that she didn't have her own identity and would just get into whatever her boyfriend at the time was into.. he didn't even want to go out with her because she looks like a troll and he was dating some model but she just started sucking his dick one day and he didn't feel like stopping her..! he even told her he liked her sister better!! (eeee! who are these people?!?! eww!! i deal with a lot of fucked up shit at work (i'm a dancer for the few people who didn't already know), but.. am i crazy for thinking this is weird and gross and like totally unacceptable?!?! i'm so embarassed i even liked this guy!! he really meant it when he said he wasn't good enough for me!! it's sad cuz there is some cool stuff about him.. i don't get it!) anyway, i guess that's it. i didn't.. feed his ego enough. (i happen to not have a whole lot invested in the late 90s miami hardcore scene..) (i wish there was a way i could like.. warn her.. i kinda feel bad for her!! who puts up with being called a receptacle?!?! she can't be that ugly...???!!!)

hm.. anyway.. i guess i have a lot to get off my chest.. and i will never honor this situation through song. in fact, i'm going to have to get rid of half the wandering ghost ep. see, i made it relevant! maybe i'll put all this stuff into a box and send it to you, james m, since you're the only one reading this haha
lastly.. this might all seem uncharacteristically dramatic for me, maybe i'm just hurt and being mean.. so, if you like, contact the miami beach police department and get a record of the domestic violence call from november whatever it was and you'll see that this person didn't move out so much as was escorted out.
if you need help getting help, man or woman, contact me and we'll figure it out.

2010.03.09
hey.. grad school was lame so i dropped out. then lots of crappy stuff happened. and is sort-of still happening haha! umm so yeah, not much to update you on. miami's pretty nice, minus the crackheads. umm have a few interviews in the works. you know, not to sound cheesy, but it's really cool that people even give a crap. it's flattering. so thanks. i'll post links to those when they're done and up.
umm... 7" yeah, i had the money and now.. well.. we'll see. it'll be pressed soon.
i'm moving to europe, so if you want me to play, let me know. i have a few more things i want to do with factoria and then i think i'll want to do something different altogether.. we'll see how things shape up. i put some photos here for now, so you can see what i'm up to www.factoriamuzak.com/joanhackerphotography
thanks for your interest : ) and patience..

2009.06.30
yeah.. whatever.. i've been busy! i think the 45 masters are ready. now i have to figure out how to get a deposit together for my move - to miami, to start grad school, in photography- *and* get this thing pressed! will post new address as soon as i have one... mm.. oh yeah, at least i'll be super busy and stimulated. usually i'm more productive under pressure. let's hope. let's get shows in miami! aaaaaaa
oh also, i will really, really try to get the HOO membership cards out! i just wanted to finish the manifesto first. perfection takes time...?

2009.03.23
the video for "night's warm kisses" is finished and can be viewed here! many, thanks to a lying douche bag who filmed everything, worked with my lack of storyboard, found locations, and helped me set up the final file : ) we did this all in one month, too, which is probably my record time for accomplishing anything of above-average importance.
everything was shot around northeastern pa over the course of two weekends this past february. i had a loose concept, but we liked how the music synched up with the first reel and i decided to leave it as-is. i think it looks cool. yes, it's totally blurry. but so is my mind. and spirit. !
in parallel news, the static dreamland/night's warm kisses 7" is getting mastered by our comrade, james plotkin, and will be sent to the pressing plant in the next month or so. it's going to be super rad. still recording for the upcoming cd "wandering ghost." hopefully it'll be more or less squared away this week. i switched the (small) office and the (large) bedroom - must have priorities straight! - and am still trying to get organizized.
okay, that's all. sleep time. thanks for reading and listening : )

2009.02.20 - part 2
aa i forgot! duhh... we're going to shoot our first music video this weekend!! for 'night's warm kisses' i'm pretty sure! we were inspired by DE.W's video... so yeah, look out for that : )

2009.02.20
hellooo... long time, no update. well, gosh, it's been a busy month. the zine is finished and it's pretty awesome : ) so you can order one if you like. they're $1 (or 2 if you want to actually help me cover costs : ) info is here : ) we have a video channel on youtube for demonstrations here : ) and a myspace.
ummmm musically... i've been recording for 'wandering ghost' amap. i made a prototype cover which turned out pretty badass. funding for the 7" is materializing so that should be a reality in a couple months weeeeee
mmm also, very exciting, our allies at Aural Apocalypse have kindly included Factoria in their most recent radio show, so that's super cool. Thank you AA! : ) It goes Death in June, Changes and then Factoria!! which is pretty fucking rad imo. It may be the closest I ever get to playing with either of them! Hopefully not : )
mm i guess that's about it... we'll be at the David E. Williams record release party in nyc coming up. he's playing with our friends The Lindbergh Baby, and Cult of Youth. Should be rad. and I *may* make a special treat. Or maybe it will be for the Philly release the following week. hmm..
I guess that's it for now.. hope i'm not forgetting anything. i'm kinda tired.. mmm.. okay, ta ta : )

2009.01.14
helloo, a new review of "the longest summer" is up here by simon collins at judas kiss. thanks, simon!
this weekend, i'll post mp3s of some of the tracks that will be on my new cd "wandering ghost" that should be coming out in a couple weeks...
also, on a side note, i'm starting a vegan/vegetarian fanzine called "the lazy vegan" which will feature recipes, articles, reviews and interviews (no dogma or gorey photos). george petros will be my first interviewee and i'm super psyched as he is one of the coolest and most interesting vegans i know, and this will certainly put us on the map with issue 1! i've created a subdomain here which will have info soon. also adel of feast of hate and fear has been kind enough to lend us one of his articles which is really for the herbivore with a sense of humor... wait to see : )

2009.01.05
mp3s are up here! thanks to adel : )
also, some new (taxidermy) photos, including owls, up on my myspace. these are from our trip to the natural history museum in nyc. it was super rad! adel rules.
oh, also, factoria has once again been featured on feast of hate and fear radio, along with a lot of others from the folkier side of town. check it out here!

2009.01.01
hi again : ) btw, the site kinda looks weird in mozilla, even though that's my browser of choice these days.. i have to figure out the java script or whatever for it.. in IE it looks fine.
also, i haven't posted the links for mp3s yet- my mp3 maker ran out of free mp3 making : ) mp3s of all songs will be up in the next few days.

2009.01.01
welcome! today is our official first day with the new site!
i'd like to note that factoria has been featured on a few radio shows which you may be interested in checking out: feast of hate and fear internet radio show (scroll around), aural apocalypse internet radio show, and if i can find the link... a radio show in sydney hosted by our ally luisa of head collision.

2008.12.31
hello all. i am proud to anounce that 100% of donations given to FACTORIA in 2008 will be donated to the Peaceable Kingdom animal rescue organization, which rescues, spays/neuters, and finds new homes for homeless animals in the Lehigh Valley area. in all honesty, most of my CDs were given away this year, so it's not a huge donation (i'll add a few more dollars myself), but i believe every bit counts and i know they will appreciate it. how do i know this is a worthwhile donation? because as of 4 january, it will have been one year since we got our little Fluffy from Peaceable Kingdom. she had been born in the wild where her mother abandoned her. she was taken in and nursed back to health and become the playful and mischievous kitten she is today. a both cute and sad reminder of her past is how she suckles herself to sleep, sometimes while lying on your lap. it's really sweet. okay, i'm going to go cry now! you can see pictures of Fluffy here.
as i'd like to make this an annual tradition, in the coming weeks, i'll set a percentage of "profits" to stick to for the 2009 donation. thank you for supporting factoria and i hope you will be inspired to support your own local animal rescue organization, either through donation of money, supplies or volunteer time. (volunteering at a shelter is so nice, especially if you want a pet but can't have one for some reason.)

2008.12.26
hello and welcome to the new FACTORIA site.
this site will hopefully facilitate meeting our goal of world domination and...
!23 SHOWS IN 2009!
see the booking page for infos!
thank you for all the encouragement and support, i appreciate it : )